Deceiving me

When I said I loved you,
It was a lie.
Lust is what
I felt inside.
I'm still wondering
what love is,
This couldn't have been it,
it wasn't all bliss.
We definitely wouldn't
be good together;
The two of us mixing
was like bad weather.
You were snow,
and I was the sun.
The task of staying together
could never be done.
If I say this over and over,
maybe I'll believe.
I'll get out of this okay,
if I can deceive me.

Love Poem

You ask what is love?
To some love is hurtful,
to others love is cheerful,
some say love is love,
some think love is like a dove,
is beautiful and caring,
some say love is just daring,
love is also like a book,
you can't judge by it's look.
Love is just there,
I think it shows how you care,
it's not there to stare,
love is incredible although it's no edible,
love is what most want they never know it will haunt,
what happens when it's over,
does your heart split in three like a clover,
next time you ask yourself what is love?
Will you think it 's like a glove ready to pull your heart out,
it will make you pout,
love is something hiding it's waiting to attack,
so you better have a comeback.
What is love?
You tell me......

Finding the right words...

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do you not hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do you not see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Far too much to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart

life as it is

This was going to be a positive note but I decided to let you understand a few things about myself. I am 14 have had a lot of problems and I am a strong survivor of a few things that 1 out of every four girls go through during their childhood or even adult hood. I am not going to explain myself and tell you what those problems were but I will tell you it was tough, and I am very proud of myself for growing immune d, and solving my problems before they got out of control. I have learned new coping mechanism and ways of living to grow stronger from what I've been through. Rather than live in self pitty and be depressed because of it. I am tired of people telling me they can't do anything about it. but if you honestly set your mind to what you are going through and understand you can have a better healthier life than you can do it. All it takes is a few patients and faith in yourself. If you can't forgive yourself than you can't forgive anyone else. Everything is inside you. Be what you want to be with great pride and don't ever say NEVER!