My death

leaning against the wall staring darkness in the face,
thinking of everyone i've lost but all that i've embraced,
with wrists bloody and hurting in pain,
I scream in silence the lords name in vain,
he doesn't answer me cause nothing comes out,
no matter how loud I scream or shout,
as I sit there in shame I think about the family I wish I had,
remembering those days wanting to know my dad,
what must I do to escape this nightmare,
I close my eyes and I can hear my lungs fill with air,
I tell myself this is the end my death,
but as I start to fade away I start to think twice but it's too late I just took my last breathe

In Misery

I try to tell myself your gone
but your words still linger me
because you left I live my life alone
you can't move on how do I set you free
trapped in these enclosed walls I scream but no one hears
I wonder the empty halls
filled with all these dark fears
I see my breathe it's so cold i'm shivering with emptyness can't you tell
your words my heart can't hold
living life without you is hell

I stupid little crush on this boy

ugh.
I am not obssessed
I'm just not gonna give it a rest
fuck what you say
Maybe without you it would make my day
why would you deny my face
I tingle with your every embrace
i'm done cashing you
I can't wait til you understand it could be just us two
I thought I meant so much more
who cares anymore go fuck some whores.....

Poem

Forced to think that hell is a place called home,
life's like a sticky melted ice cream cone,
having sex and doing drugs to get away from the pain,
it only cause more stress in this game,
never finding a way out of these enclosed walls in my dream,
no one notices me I'm out of breathe and can't scream

Flyleaf

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Fighting

Listening to people fight scares me. I cannot stand the hot raging attitudes and the loud noises. I think there is always a better solution than fighting. I know I can sometimes get out of hand as well. and it is natural to get angry. But sometimes your just better off telling the other person your right and move on. You don't live to argue. Think about others around you take the fall and be the bigger man for the benefit of other's.